Have you ever wondered if you could trust God with your story? With your circumstances? With your struggles? With your dreams? Let me share why I had trouble trusting God as a new Christians…
I hopped up on the counter at the soda fountain and placed my five-year-old feet on the spinning stool in front of me. Dad sipped on a Coke and talked to the lady behind the counter with the red-and-white-striped apron tied around her waist.
“This is my little girl,” Daddy said with a smile. “She’s a little monkey.”
“Why, Allan, she’s just as cute as she can be.”
For a moment, I thought I was.
I stood in the front yard waiting for the screaming to stop before I went back inside. Dad was drunk again, and Mom was screaming at the top of her lungs. Why couldn’t he see how afraid I was? Why did he drink? Why did Mom yell? Why did they hit each other? After 17 years of these volcanic outbursts, you’d think I’d be used to it. But they always took me by surprise.
The next day came with many tears and promises. “I’ll never do it again,” Dad said. “I am so sorry.”
But there was always a next time. I couldn’t trust him.
When I became a Christian, I understood God’s amazing love for me. But I wondered, could I trust Him? Could I trust God with my hopes and fears, days and years? When you understand the depth of His love, the answer is always yes. Perfect love drives away all fear, kicks it out the door, gives it the boot (1 John 4:18). I love how another translation says 1 John 4:18:
There is no fear in love [dread does not exist], but full-grown (complete, perfect) love turns fear out of doors and expels every trace of terror! For fear brings with it the thought of punishment, and [so] he who is afraid has not reached the full maturity of love [is not yet grown into love’s complete perfection] (ampc).
I could relate to the rejected Jesus and easily accept the indescribable gift He gave. I marveled at God’s love. I truly did. But when it came time to trust my heavenly Father with my hopes and dreams… that was a different story. For the longest time, when conflicts arose, I became that teenage girl looking in the crowd for a daddy who wasn’t there. Could I trust this heavenly Father? I wasn’t so sure.
But one day God spoke to my heart in a poignant way. He seemed to say, take your father’s face off Mine,. I am not like your earthly father. I am your heavenly Father. Through the years I’ve learned:
God is always good.
God always tells the truth.
God wants what’s best for you.
You can trust Him.
It’s easy to trust God when life is good. But when a child rebels, the bank account dwindles, or the biopsy comes back saying the tumor is malignant, we wonder. Is God really good? We know in our heads that He is, but the heart struggles to believe. We wonder if we can really trust God with our stories.
The enemy peddles the lie that God is not good—that He’s holding out on us. That’s what satan told Eve. God is holding out on you. You can’t trust Him. You will not die.
Then disappointment hits and satan says, “Told you so.”
Life is filled with disappointments. And it’s during those times of disappointment that the enemy sows seeds of distrust with thoughts of mistrust. Disappointment and discouragement become the breeding ground for Satan’s lies to take root.
Can you imagine how the disciples must have felt as the stone rolled in front of Jesus’ tomb? How could this happen? Where is God? We thought He was going to restore Israel? But three days later, when Jesus rose from the grave and appeared to them in all His glory, they knew the answer. God had a greater plan. The story wasn’t over.
And friend, you can trust that God has more to write in your story too.
Heavenly Father, I am so glad I can trust You with my hopes, my dreams, my fears, and my years. I know that You have a good plan for me. Even when I am disappointed and heartbroken, help me to trust that Your ways are perfect. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.
Ponder this verse: “Those who know your name trust in you, for you, LORD, have never forsaken those who seek you.” (Psalm 9:10 NIV)
What are you trusting God for today?
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