Crying in the Corner

Sharon JaynesUncategorized 132 Comments

My son, Steven, was three years old when he contracted a severe case of the flu. His slumped body snuggled listlessly in my lap like a worn-out rag doll. When I carried him into the medical clinic, the doctor took one look at my boy and sent us straight to the hospital. Steven was dehydrated and needed fluids immediately.

My heart ripped wide when the nurses taped a support board to Steven’s little arm and inserted the needle for the IV. Not his thumb-sucking arm, my heart winced.

“Mommy, Mommy,” Steven cried. “Make them stop! They are hurting me!”

“No, honey,” I tried to assure him with tears streaming down my cheeks. “They’re making you all better.”

“Mommy, help me!”

Steven cried. I cried. The nurses cried.

I could only imagine what was going through Steven’s mind. Why are these people hurting me? Why doesn’t Mommy make them stop? She must not love me. She’s not protecting me. If she loved me, she wouldn’t let them do this.

Standing in the corner watching my little tow-headed boy cry, I wondered if God feels something similar when I am in a painful situation. I cry out, “God, help me! Make this stop! Why are you letting this happen? Why are you allowing this person to hurt me? Don’t you love me? Don’t you care about me? I know you could get me out of this situation if you wanted to. Why don’t you make it go away?”

Then I envisioned God speaking to my pain-filled little girl heart. You might think I’ve deserted you, but I will never leave or forsake you. You might think I don’t love you, but I love you to the height of heaven and the depth of the sea. You might think I don’t care about what’s happening to you, but I am orchestrating your days and care about every hair on your head. My ways are higher than your ways and my thoughts are higher than your thoughts. Yes, I do care about you and what is happening to you. In the end, this will make you better. I am not doing something to you; I’m doing something in you.

Pastor Steven Furtick once said, “We worship a God who can best be explained as a mystery, and yet we live in a culture that worships certainty.” However, the very definition of faith is an intertwining of mystery and certainty.

The writer of Hebrews penned, “Faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen” (Hebrews 11:1 ESV). The word translated “conviction” is the Greek word elegchos, which means a proof or test. It can also be translated as “evidence,” and yet, faith is belief in something we cannot prove.

There’s nothing wrong with trying to understand why bad things happen, but we have to recognize that our understanding is limited. The Bible clearly states, “Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding” (Proverbs 3:5).

In other words, don’t try to figure out everything on your own. When we hold loosely our need to know the why, we can trust fully in the who. Since God’s ways are higher than our ways, we shouldn’t expect him to write our stories the same way we would. Often, the twists and turns of the plot won’t make sense until we’re on the other side of this life. And here’s a promise from the Lord himself: “Those who hope in me will not be disappointed” (Isaiah 49:23).

The devil will try to fill in the gaps of what you don’t understand, and poke holes in what you do. Refuse his input into your situation. Let faith fill the gaps of what you don’t understand and the full assurance of God’s goodness seal up what you do.

I don’t understand why certain parts of my story have played out as they have, and I’m guessing you probably don’t either. But one day we will. In the meanwhile, I trust that God loves me and knows what’s best for me. That doesn’t mean I’m going to like every situation that comes my way, but after I fuss about it for a while, I will settle down and remember that God is not absent in what is happening. I can choose to believe that God will somehow use my pain for a purpose. I may not see the good on this side of heaven, but I can trust it’s waiting for me there even now.

Heavenly Father, I don’t understand everything that happens in my life, but I do understand that You always know what’s best. I trust You, even when I don’t understand. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

If you’re willing to trust God in the middle of the struggle, you’re going through right now, leave a comment and say, “I’m trusting God’s hand.”

I’ll admit, trusting God can be hard at times. That’s why Mary Southerland, Gwen Smith and I wrote a 12-week devotional to help you get there. We’ve all gone through difficult times and have learned how to trust God in the dark. Let’s do it together. Trusting God comes with a Bible-study guide and journal pages at the end of each week’s study.

 

 

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Comments 132

  1. I am trusting God!
    This is a very encouraging devotion and scriptures for me today. I will keep it to refer to.
    Thank you.

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  6. I trust God with my life because he loves and cares for me. He knows what is best for me. 🙏❤️

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    1. I am trusting God. He has been with me since He blew breath into me, and He will not leave or forsake me. His words. Thank You, God, my Father for loving, protecting, providing, and guiding me every second of my life. Thank You.

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  16. Thank you, thank you, thank you. I was struggling with the loss of someone very near and dear to me even when I prayed fervently for their life. I felt that God didn’t hear me. But as I am growing I am learning to trust God no matter what and I needed to read this to help shore up my faith. Thank you for your encouraging words.

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    1. This may help you I hope. My 42 year old daughter dropped dead 3 days before Christmas in 2020. I didn’t get a chance to pray. After the shock settled a bit, I determined (and began to believe) that God had allowed her to go at that moment so her life in eternity would be secure in heaven with Him. She loved the Lord and was saved but often made poor choices and decisions. I was never mad with God at all. I believe that He knew best. At Christmas time in 2023, the Holy Spirit confirmed to me that she is in heaven. I will see her again. May the Holy Spirit comfort you in the loss of your loved one.

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  17. Thank you, Sharon, for this timely message. God is faithful to His promises. He promised me healing, so I am healed. AMEN!!

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  18. I am trusting God’s hand. I have a daughter going through cancer. She is having a rough time, but I know God has this.

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  30. Your story of your little boy tugged at my heart! It was a great analogy of how our creator loves us and how He sent His only begotten son to die for us all so we can have a way back to Him! I wasn’t privy to the trials and tests we go through life like Job, until I repented and gave my life to Jesus! You’re right!! It’s not always easy, but we have to remember, like the Footprints in the Sand encouragement; There was only one set of footprints, because our Lord was carrying us! Even after everything I have gone through, the worst pain was losing both of my brothers in one month, and my husband the next year! I was on a roller coaster of grief! God’s grace, mercy, and love filled me with the Holy Spirit so I could go on. I pray that others can know Him and learn that He only wants the best for His children! 🙏 Thank you for sharing your story!

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  41. I’ve been diagnosed with bladder cancer, high grade, muscle invasive, aggressive, I’m trusting God’s hand!

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  42. I am trusting not only God’s hand, but his heart. I know he has me in the palm of his good hand, even though I don’t know if my son will die, or if we will lose our home, or if my husband will find a job. I know God sees us and will be with us. Thank you for this reminder.

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  47. Good morning, Beautiful Queen. I’m trusting God’s Hand. I’m so grateful to have found out about this ministry. Continued Blessings!
    Agape,
    Mattie

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  48. Thank you Sharon, for this wonderful devotion. It speaks
    directly to my heart. I would love to take part in this Bible study.

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  52. I’m trusting Gods hand as I walk my husband through cancer treatments. Thank you for this timely devo sent by a CBS friend …. So grateful ❤️

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  53. Love your devotions! You are aaster wordsmith! Keep up the good work & may God bless you for the many lives you help!

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  57. I’m trustingGod’s hand. I just picked up your book last week and I am in awe how it is speaking to my soul. Sometimes I just sit reading the words with tears flowing freely down my face. God’s perfect timing that I found your book with the precious words that are resonating with me. Thank you!

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  61. God knows my struggle. He know’s how many times I have cried and asked him why. But through all of this he has given me clarity to trust in him. Quite the journey this old lady has had.
    He has supplied my needs with jobs and family. I keep remembering that. I will hold loosely to the why and in God’s have faith.

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  63. I’m trusting God’s hand !
    I pray for peace, and joy in knowing he’s in control and to subside my anxiety as I go through this process.

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  64. I am trusting God’s hand and his ways. I don’t know what’s on the other side of our situation, but I trust in Him and know that he has the exact plans for us.

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  66. I’m have been going through a lot since September 2, 2024 , find myself crying out to God what’s going on in my life, then on November 27, 2024 I lost my mom. She went home to be with the Lord. I am learning every day that I have to trust God, even though I haven’t seen him I believe in him and I put my whole trust in him in the situation. In this case I’m in knowing God will prevail for me and I will receive justice, and God will have mercy on me, and I will continue to trust him, Thank you so much for your kind words each morning and a reminder always TRUST GOD 🙌♥️

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  70. I’m in the middle of a health crisis with severe neck pain with bone on bone – degenerative they say! I’m at the pain clinic. I have a husband with declining cognitive abilities. I’m trusting in God’s hands!

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  71. I’m in the middle of a health crisis with severe neck pain with bone on bone – degenerative they say! I’m at the pain clinic. I have a husband with declining cognitive abilities. I’m trusting in God’s hands!

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  72. I am trusting in God’s hand. He is a good, good God. I believe He has my best interest in mind. May He be glorified in all things.

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  73. “I’m trusting God’s hand.”
    Thank you for sharing. I have been asking God to share with me what He would like me to share with his people this Sunday. Your message confirms it for me. Blessings on blessings to you and the ministry!

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  79. I am trusting in God for healing’s of body with mobility issue’s and my overall health. My trusting him with my fiancés and grieving losing my grandmother my best friend and tamekia my friend it’s been hard in 2025. Lord Jesus I overcome with grief . I pray for all who is suffering and we all can trust that God’s has a perfect plan we cannot see!

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  80. I am trusting in God for healing’s of body with mobility issue’s and my overall health. My trusting him with my fiancés and grieving losing my grandmother my best friend and tamekia my friend it’s been hard in 2025. Lord Jesus I overcome with grief . I pray for all who is suffering and we all can trust that God’s has a perfect plan we cannot see.

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  85. I am trusting God to help me through my sorrow of losing my friends due to their health issues. Praying I will come to find peace in my heart!

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  93. God Bless your Ministry and all those who read it and take it to heart for our Lord God, Jesus loves you No Matter What! My sister in Christ writes that on all her devotionals. She’s inspiring just like you!! Love you and all those who comment my heart goes out to everyone. Stay positive in Jesus and know He does answer Prayer!

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  94. I’m Trusting God’s Hand. Even though I don’t know how or when, I’ll evidently see God working it out for my good. Thank you God 🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾

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  97. I’m trusting God’s hand in my life, Bill’s life, the life of my children and grandchildren. I will trust and not grow weary.

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  99. This Devotional went to the core of my heart. My heart certainly aches when my son hurts, whether it’s emotional or physical. The verse from Provebs is one of my favorites that I quote to myself and to others. Thank you for sharing this devotional!! Love and Blessings to you and your family!

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  100. In the midst of loss and major change, I’m trusting God’s hand. There is joy to find if we are open to see.

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  104. I am trusting God’s hand. He has a reason and a purpose to my daughter’s Long COVID diagnosis. I am trusting Him.

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  105. I am trusting God’s hand. I give it all to you. It’s been almost a year and I need you more than ever.

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  106. I am trusting God’s hand. I give it all to you. It’s been almost a year and I need you more than ever.

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  107. I’m really wanting and trying to trust God’s hand it’s just at the moment it’s very very hard!

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  108. I’m trusting God’s hand over my husband as he looks for a job since he was laid off a few months ago. God has a plan and I trust him!

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  109. I am trusting God’s hand. I may not understand at times, that is where my faith needs to step in. In a world where we can get help physically to heal some hurts and pain, but He is more powerful than that and the pain can be a way to make us stronger in our belief. He is there for us always, not matter what.

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  110. I’m trusting God, my best friend, he is my everyday, two years ago he overcame a quadruple bypass surgery and now is diagnosed with stage 3 pancreatic cancer. If you could keep him (Anthony) lifted up in prayer my heart is grateful.

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  111. I’m trusting God with everything and praying that His strength will see me through the loss of my daughter.

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  121. I’m trusting God for deliverance from the physical attacks that I’ve been going through for the last 7 years.
    Amen

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  122. I’m trusting God for deliverance from physical attacks that I’ve been going through for the last 7 years. Amen

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  123. I am trusting God’s hand to take my hand and help me to walk and drive again so I can go back to Church and worship Him and thank Him for healing me.

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