He did it again. The devil whispered a lie into my head, and I believed it. Of course, I didn’t know it was him. I thought it was just me. But it wasn’t.
Did you know the devil wants to sneak up on you? He prowls around like a lion just looking for the right opportunity.
If Satan came to you in a little red suit with a pitchfork and announced himself as the devil, you wouldn’t believe a word he said. But he is cunning and disguises himself as an angel of light (2 Corinthians 11:14). When he deceived Eve, he even quoted Scripture—albeit twisted and distorted.
He has a collection of old tapes from your past, and he pushes rewind and play, rewind and play. Oh yes, he knows which buttons to push. He also uses personal pronouns like “I” instead of “you.” The thoughts sound something like this: I am a failure. I am a loser. I can’t do anything right. I’m ugly. The thoughts sound like you, feel like you, and before you know it, you think they are you. That’s the reason it’s so difficult to detect the lies. They sound just like us.
In 1 Chronicles 21:1, the writer notes, “Satan rose up against Israel and incited David to take a census of Israel.” Of course, David thought it was his own idea, but the Bible clearly states it was not. He would have never counted his fighting men if Satan had stood before him and said, “Hey, buddy, I know God wants you to depend on Him and His power, but I think you should count those fighting men just to make sure. You never know if God is going to come through for you. This way you’ll know just how strong your army really is.”
The devil knew David would have thrown him out by his hairy toe if he’d shown up in bodily form, so the crafty manipulator put the thought in David’s mind. David thought it was his own idea, and off he went. Nine months later, when the census was complete, David felt guilty for his disobedience. God forgave David, but he still had to suffer the consequences of his actions.
Satan knows exactly which lies to whisper in your mind. He has watched you over the years and is well acquainted with your insecurities, weaknesses, and vulnerabilities.
Do you tend to get discouraged? He will plant seeds of discouragement in your mind.
Do you tend to struggle with rejection and loneliness? He will put ideas about rejection and loneliness in your mind.
As Peter warns us, “Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour” (1 Peter 5:8 NIV). It’s up to us to recognize the lion’s growl of lies, and reject those lies with truth.
Let’s practice together:
The Devil’s Lie: You are condemned.
Truth: I am forgiven and free.
Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit who gives life has set you free from the law of sin and death. (Romans 8:1-2)
The Devil’s Lie: You are a loser.
Truth: I am a conqueror.
In all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us (Romans 8:37).
The Devil’s Lie: You should feel insecure.
Truth: I am secure.
Those who fear the Lord are secure (Proverbs 14:26 nlt).
Heavenly Father, help me detect the lies of the enemy in my life. Help me to see if any thoughts do not line up with Your truth, and then give me the wisdom to reject the lies quickly and completely. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.
What is one lie from the enemy that you tend to struggle with? What is God’s truth about that lie? Leave a comment and let’s share. If you don’t know the truth to replace the lie, that’s OK. Let’s hop in and help each other!
Do you ever feel that you’re not good enough, smart enough, or just not enough, period? If so, it’s time to silence the lies that steal your confidence and awaken the truth that you’re amazingly created and equipped by God. Today’s devotion was adapted from my book Enough: Silencing the Lies that Steal Your Confidence. Get your copy today and start believing the truth about who God says you are! Also, consider purchasing one for a friend who is struggling to believe the truth about who she is in Christ.
Also includes a Bible study guide in the back.
Be on the lookout next week for a new prayer card just for husbands! Praying Scripture for Your Wife from Head to Toe!
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“I am unloved.” But, I know through Christ, I have unconditional love, acceptance and appreciation. I don’t have to look for in “them” what I have found in “HIM”.
Thank you for posting this. I sometimes struggle with this too.
The lie I struggle with letting go at times is that I’m not forgiven for my past sins/transgressions.
The truth is Psalm 103:12- “As far as the east is from the west, so far has He removed my transgressions from me.”
Hallelujah! 🙏🏾✝️
I struggle with that as well. How can the Lord love me when I was such a sinner? I know God has forgiven me….I pray to forgive myself. God bless you.
2 Corinthians 5:21 – For He made Him who knew no sin to be sin for us, that we might become the righteousness of God in Him.
You are now, the righteousness of God.
Romans 6:13 – Present your members as members of righteousness.
Come boldly to the throne of GRACE.
Receive His mercies that are new every day. Receive the crown of confidence. We have confidence in Him and on Him. You are loved and forgiven. Allow His Truth, grace, and love to transform you a you abide in Him ❤️🙏🏽
Thank you! I struggle with the same thing.
I also struggle with the sins of my past. I constantly pray that I will be totally forgiven and will be in heaven when I die.
I struggle with this also.
Need this reminder…waiting for healing from stage 4 breast cancer while my 3 teenage daughters at home lash out with words and unloving actions…I need prayer to get through this darkness
Praying for you and your family today, Dawn.
Prayed and praying for you and your daughters!
Praying for you right now!
I will be praying for you Dawn .
May God give you the strength and peace as you’re walking this journey.
My heart aches for you. I prayed that God would be the Shield about you, the Lifter of your head … your Healer, Jehovah Rapha, and that you would know His banner over you is Love. He is your Strength and He promises to heal all our diseases and give strength to our bones. He is faithful. I pray protection over your heart from the wounds that hurt from our family members – I know that well. The battle is not flesh and blood – He will redeem. Jesus is your Shepherd and He will protect you. He loves you.
Good words Sharon
Ephesians 6:10-18 The Armor of God.
Belt of truth
Shoes of peace
helmet of salvation
sword of the Spirit -The WORD
shield of faith
Hi Dawn. The devil is a liar because according to 1Peter 2: 24, “by His stripes you were healed”. Your healing is already accomplished. Also Matthew 8:17, “He Himself took our infrimities and bore our sicknesses”. Please medidate on these truths rather than focus on the pain and the doctors report. You are not waiting to be healed, you are already healed. Please declare it over your body several times and believe His word more than the lies of the devil. You are already Healed in Jesus Name, Amen! Please check out Andrew Wommack’s messages on God Wants You well and also You are Already Healed.
I prayed for you right now❤️🙏🏻🫂
Praying for you now ❤️🙏
Hi Dawn,
I will be praying for you. I am a stage 3 ovarian cancer survivor. I will be praying for God’s healing and blessings for you and your girls. May God’s love fill you, and may it shine through you, in the midst of your circumstances. God bless you.
Prayed for you. That is so difficult. So hard when our kids are so unloving. ❤️
Praying for you Dawn. Hugs.
I am praying for you, Dawn. I am the mother of daughters as well and I can recall the difficult teenage years when they were less than kind, and very angry with me. Dear Father please provide Dawn with peace, courage, strength and healing – and the help she needs to get through this chapter in her life.
Dawn, I don’t know you but I feel you. Recovering from Leukemia myself, long haul but almost there. My “unloved feeling” comes from my granddaughter.” I make excuses for her behavior all the time but now have to pray for her, love her, but back away. I know you can’t back away from your daughters. I’ll be praying for you and your family especially your daughters. Perhaps they are very scared and don’t know what to do with those feelings so as it so often happens takes their anger out on the person they know will love them unconditionally. Praying they look to God for peace and unconditional love.
Sending prayers and positivity your way Dawn!
Prayers for you Dawn to fully heal by God’s grace and love. Prayers for your strength and peace. Prayers for your daughters to turn to God to help them see the hurt they are causing. God is so good!
Praying for you right now Dawn
Dearest Dawn, I know and feel your pain. I have walked through the fire and the valley, but I never walked alone! God showed me that Noah did not see the rainbow until the storm was over. Hang tight. He that is in me is greater than he that is in the world. I am praying for you to find peace as you walk through this.
I don’t know if this is allowed, but if you would like to connect and talk, and pray, my email is mildanent@aol.com.
Mille Sheppard
Hi Dawn! I just prayed for you! It is well, In Jesus’ Name!
Oh Dawn I am so sorry. Praying that God will intervene and give your daughters wisdom and compassion for you and each other. Prayers for strength and healing for you!
Love, hugs and prayers coming your way! I’m a breast cancer survivor and I know He is with you every step. Lean on Him! We have the sheer luxury of His comfort!
Hi Dawn,
Your comment struck me and brought me to tears.
As a Mom with a teenage daughter, I understand how upsetting it is to not be appreciated and taken for granted.
I do believe this shall pass and a new season will begin, where your girls will admire you and see God working in your life
and theirs as God did for me & my daughter.
Never give up hope that Jesus our healer, provider, restorer
and Lord of ALL, has your back.
I will pray for your healing, restoration and peace for you and your family.
Lovingly,
Your Sister in Christ
The enemy tells me I’m not going to be able to purchase a home , my children are going to fail.
My God shall supply ALL your needs according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus! Phillipians 4:19
And all thy children shall be taught of the Lord; and great shall be the peace of thy children. Isaiah 54:13
Good morning friends, I struggle to believe that God is still faithful and loves me when I mess up OR when bad things happen I believe it’s because of my lack of obedience or seeking His guidance. While I know that sometimes that can be the case because it is self inflicted, it is not always the case and I believe the lies of Satan. So…again this morning I have been reminded in Psalm 22 of His faithfulness throughout past generations, what He has done for me in the past and also that His mercies are new every morning, great is His faithfulness and in His presence there is fullness of joy! -Amen
The devil tells me I’m not good enough, and I’ve lost my spark in the workplace. This is a significant blow especially when I’m in a transition at work after not meeting their expectations. He is telling me that I won’t find another job and my fear is crippling me. It’s on me to take care of my family because my husband hasn’t consistently worked over the past 15 years. So much pressure and thinking about what is best for my daughter.
Mindy – I also struggle with the lies of not being good enough. Praying that you will find peace and comfort in God’s plan for you and will be able to rely on Him to provide for your family. Jeremiah 29:11.
Mindy I understand your pain and anxiety I am at the same place, but divorced. I meditate on Psalms 23, Romans 8:22-39 (especially verses 26-29). Especially when I want to give up! Be Blessed!!
Good morning! Yes, he tells me all of those and, I seem enable to do other than fall for the lies. Please pray with me that I am able to discard him and his lies and look to my Lord and Savior to put my mind right.
Thank you
Naomi
Yes Naomi – I too need to learn to detect the lies and discard them, trusting in God’s word. Praying with you for that trust.
I have been struggling for years to quit smoking, and the devil keeps g me lies and I start up again. I quit today and I’m going to listen for God’s voice not the devils.
God will be right there walking through this with you! Lean on Him for help! Here’s a couple of verses to encourage you!
I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me. Phillipians 4:13
Don’t you know that you are the temple of God and that the Spirit of God dwells in you? I Corinthians 3:16
You can do this! 🙏🙏🙏
Heather – praying that you will lean on God to help you quit and that you are successful this time! Please get screened for lung cancer – my father passed away in January after being diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer at Halloween. The only symptom he had was a soft cough. Praying for you.
My daughter and her family celebrated Easter with SIL’s family. I get to have a meal with them on Wednesday after Easter. By Sunday afternoon, the devil had put me in a downward spiral of feeling rejected & unloved.
This is amazing Sharon, thank you! I love the way your words always seem to relate to my life. And love your books ♥️. Praying for those struggling to battle the Evil one, including myself. The Devil is in the details – but God is larger in every small detail of my life – I’m so grateful✝️🙏🏻
Dios, me quito completamente el amor de mi esposo, al principio no lo entendía, pero ahora se que lo hizo para que yo lo amara primero a Él antes que a nadie y si algún día me vuelve a regresar a mi esposo se que será totalmente transformado amoroso y temeroso de nuestro Padre Celestial
Lie ; I am ugly
Truth ; Psalm 34:5 those who look to him are radiant. Their faces will be ashamed.
You are wonderfully made, in His image and He knew you even before conception. When you look in the mirror ask Him who He sees.
“You are a loser.” I feel this way a lot, but my childhood was not healthy. I always blamed it on my childhood but it makes sense that it’s Satan toying with me. Please give me strength Father!
Thank you for the reminder, Mary.
I have had blow after blow over the last few years I just found out I’m losing my job in June due to budget cuts, my husband lost his job in December, boss sold business . I come up for air and get pummeled and pushed back down.. Here are the hits. My beautiful baby boy comes out as gay and is going to get married my other children don’t want that influence in their children’s lives so no more family gatherings 😥. I gave a child up for adoption when I was young because the good Christian parents that I gave her to would raise her much better than a single mom. Said every adult I trusted (youth leader, pastor,parents). I recently received a message from my child via Facebook. “My dad was gay and left my mom when I was 5, my mom had mental health issues and I was raised with 26 other foster kids my mom took in until they were taken away and I am trans and now a boy. ” I prayed for 42 years that God would take care of her😥. My mom has dementia and continually makes me feel like a failure, sister and brother in law had to live with us for 2 years, mother in law had to move in and I don’t measure up to her either. Branch comes through the roof and roof is leaking,(there’s always a leaky roof). And those are just a few. Yesterday I had a George Bailey moment and then prayed for God to rescue me. This morning I read your devotional. I teach a women’s Sunday school class and minister to women in my church through an addiction program and I had forgotten the very thing I preach. This devotional reminded me of who I am in Christ and that the devil would love to see me fail. Thank you for your ministry and your message today especially the reference verses at the end. Holding Romans 8:37 close to my heart today. Yelling at Satan to get behind me, claiming victory in Christ praising God for his goodness. Love in Christ, Debbie
Praying for you in all your troubles. Blessings your way!!!!!
“Greater is the one living inside of you than he who is living in the world.” I John 4:4 Claim it
Debbie – you are so strong to get through all of this hardship. I am amazed at your resilience. Please know that God sees you and he will get you through all of this. Hugs,
Debbie, That is a lot to carry and discern for one person. I hope you have a trusted Christian friend or a Christian counselor you can lean on. Stay close to the scriptures every single day and He will bring you out of your struggles, but it may not look like what/how your desire. Trust in Him, ask Him what His will is for your life and to lead you. Peace & prayers
Hold fast My heart breaks for you but do not give up ! God hasn’t forsaken you 🙏🙏
Debbie, dear, dear Debbie, you are so so very courageous, yes that’s word I meant to type. For you to be able to type out your story alone, much less live it, is nothing short of courageous. My wife and I have a wall hanging in our living room, over head as I type, and I thought of it reading your story. It says, Be strong and courageous, do not be afraid, or discourages. For the Lord your God will be with you whereevee you go. Joshua 1:9….. also, remember, while the devil is a lion seeking whom to devour WE belong to the Lion of Juda and He….IS KING.
Debbie, my name is Niles, if my other reply posts, I should clarify I’m a 53 year old man, who is a pastor. My wife introduced me to Sharon’s devotions. I’m certainly out of place with all the ladies posting , but I’m so touched by Sharon’s words and wisdom and your story just broke and ministered to my heart I just had to send the other reply if it posts
I struggle with feeling loved or even worthy of love. After 24 years of marriage my husband decided he didn’t want to be married anymore and left. My children who were 16 and 19 at the time have struggled greatly. My son has denounced all of us and changed his last name and when he got married we were not invited! (Huge heartbreak for this mama) when I was reunited with my college sweetheart and we rekindled our relationship and got married, I thought finally, someone who knows me and loves me. He is a wonderful man, but recently has said things to me that have put me right back in the pit! Thank you for reminding me that I need to concentrate on who God says I am, and stop listening to Satan’s voice in my head saying I’m not good enough for anyone to love me. Prayers appreciated.
Remember you a daughter of a King. He sees you, He knows your by name and knows your voice. Lean into the scriptures and into Him. Ask for His guidance and purpose for your life-His will
Satan is a real enemy indeed. He works on my past failures and people that I have struggled with in life to bring up anxiety in my life and I have to pray and let it go and ask those thoughts not to return. Sometimes, I honestly say, “Satan get behind me” because I recognize him more clearly now than I did years ago. That is a relief. I know my God stands with me and is for me, not against me. I cling to God’s truths each day and that is where you can get Satan, declare God’s truth right to his face! Over and over and praise the Lord at the same time! I really do hate Satan! Dear Lord, Be with all of us women and men to defeat our enemy, Satan. Give us faith that you will always be there to help us defeat him! Amen.
Dear Lord and Father ,
You know the tears I have wiped from my eyes over the years. Sometimes I have felt like those tears will finally stop overflowing from my eyes and then the next day or the next moment they are back again. I am weary of it Lord. But I do feel guilty bringing it to You as it seems as if it is a very trivial thing compared to the suffering in the rest of the world. I suffer alone on those days or in those times. I
desperately hope my husband will change, but day after day he does not change. I often feel lonely. I suffer alone because my husband is emotionally missing in our life. I suffer alone because I am embarrassed about how weak I am and I don’t feel I am important enough to share my circumstances with anyone else.
Man may have left me, but Jesus has not. You are with me. The Holy Spirit is inside me. Although it may feel like it, I am never, ever alone. Amen
Mat God surround you with His love and protection bringing you up, over, and out of dark thoughts, verbal darts, and the murky fog of negative opinions. May perfect health engulf you and lead you to a place of forgiveness and understanding. May you children be awed by your strength and perseverance that only the God of the Universe could provide you. In the name of Jesus
The lie I’ve had my whole life after sexual abuse, abandonment, rape, is that I’m never enough they’ll all leave, everyone will hurt you because you are and always have been nothing. They’ll hurt you again. She I kept this wall up even when I thought I had crushed it, my actions priced I was still believing I wasn’t enough. Until I realized, the work is not in being prettier, b being better being stringer being everything God said I am, the work is IN the believing Him because he created me from all those wonderful things, I have always been those things because He created me that way. It’s never gone away, no one can take it from me. No circumstance can take it from me. I just have to remind myself to believe who God made me to be and what He made me from.
🥹I can relate to this thank you for sharing
You were wonderfully made in His image, You are a daughter to the One true King. He sees you, knows you and will rescue you. He never leaves us in the ditch, I pray for His direction, love and compassion on you
I believe I am not worthy to spend time with. My husband does minimal with me. I’m not smart enough either. That’s me thinking that way, not being told that.
You are neither. You are a Child of God and a person of Worth – a COGPAW. Hugs.
This was so timely. Exactly the words that I needed to hear today!! Enough is one of my favorite books. I have read it multiple times and I feel like each time I learn something new.
I struggle with fear and the “what ifs” in life, such as what if this happens or that happens. Even sometimes when the Lord gives me an encouraging scripture I think He’s giving this to me because something bad is going to happen. The scripture you gave today though is what I’m going to believe, Proverbs 4:26, “Those who fear the Lord are secure.”
I can identify with each comment, especially Debbie. I prayed for each and every one of you all that we’re going through I know that the Lord is with us and for us.
Psalm 91:1-2
Security of the One Who Trusts in the Lord.
91 He who [a]dwells in the shelter of the Most High
Will remain secure and rest in the shadow of the Almighty [whose power no enemy can withstand].
2
I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress,
My God, in whom I trust [with great confidence, and on whom I (depend)rely]!”
(AMP)
Love you all
Deborah
Thank you Sharon for this message today! Satan quite often pushes my buttons, especially when I wake up in the middle of the night and tells me of all the past mistakes I have made and I am not worthy. But I call on the name of Jesus and often read Romans 8:1
“There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus, who do not walk according to the flesh, but according to the Spirit!”
Thank you Jesus💟
This is so true! The devil messes with me constantly, telling me I have Lupus. My doctor had me tested a couple of times now and both tests came back negative. My doctor still seems to have me deemed as positive for Lupus. Every time I feel any weird thing in my body, or my cheeks turn pink, (even if I’m just hot) I think the worst. I’m tired of allowing the devil access to those tapes I don’t want to hear anymore!!
My Daughter and son haven’t talked to each other in 10 years. I keep trying to get them to talk to each other , but my daughter tells me to quit getting in the middle of it. Satan keeps telling me they aren’t ever going to get together. For some reason I keep believing it. Now my husband is very ill I don’t think he will make it much longer and here it is again. Satan telling me he won’t. I have to have faith not fear. Keep trusting and listening to God and what He wants me to do. It’s hard but I need to pray constantly. God is there for me and you.
I too have many of the same issues as you ladies. I share your pain but I lean on the arms of God. The devil is a liar, we are worthy! Our God is greater our God is mighty, we are the children of a King that sits on the thrown of heaven. Oh how he loves you and me. I was recently diagnosed with stage 3 kidney disease. The devil has been beating me up mentally and I keep saying in the name of Jesus get behind me. My God is a miracle working God. I will appreciate all prayers as I face many doctors appointments. I believe in healing and God is not finished with me yet.
Thank you Sharon!
Love in Christ,
Anita
The satan’s lies: You’ll never be able to eat right – it’s ok to eat those sugar free cookies – a little salt (on a chip) is ok – hey, you’re eating that low cal stuff, fill up! Besides, you’ve already come a long way – don’t worry about this little excess weight.
God’s truth – with My power, you can overcome this addiction. Realize My Spirit will strengthen you in this fight.
I reject the lies of the enemy. I receive Gods word that me and my children will live long healthy lives. We will continue to prosper in love, finance,and health. Most importantly God will lead our lives the whole way. Amen
The devil tells me that I am not strong enough! I have had some health challenges the past 7 months, and it affecting my mental and physical health and wellbeing!
The devil tells me I’m weak and not a good parent. He challenges my mental health and physical health. Some times I feel physically and emotionally drained.
This is exactly how the devil operates. I hear in my head at times that I’m not good enough! I’m fat! My hair looks crappy! Yer just a dummy! It’s awful. I’m not any of these things but this is what goes on in my head sometimes. I pray that the Lord shows me how HE SEES ME! EL ROI! 🙏
Praying for you, Dawn. Lord, pls help Dawn during this very difficult time, not only having to endure cancer, but also her heart breaking because of her daughter’s anger. Peace pour your Holy peace on them, your compassion, and love. Help them and send them people that will teach them how to be able to let those uncomfortable feelings out in a productive and loving way. In Yeshua’s Holy name.
I mostly believe that I am underserving of Love and I can never be enough so I try to always ‘do and overdo’ and I am CONSISTENTLY DISAPPOINTED IN MYSELF, I have become my greatest critic and enemy tbh and I punish myself even when I know God does not and will not, all because i just don’t feel worthy of ‘LOVE’, which is very weird because I LOVE LOVE AND LOVE TO SHOW LOVE TO OTHERS.
For years I have feared dying and going to hell. I accepted and believed in my heart that Jesus died for my sins and was raised from the dead.. I get so discouraged because I seem to be able to pray. I have been in the darkest place at times about this and feel like giving up but I can’t.
I married the wrong person years ago, out of disobedience, I thought God didn’t have anyone else for me and I had to go out by myself to find someone to marry. Of course I got a divorce a couple years later, with a daughter that I had to raise practically by myself, and I can’t stop thinking that that decision ruined my life. As David, I had to live with the consequences of my disobedience and that thought torments me. If only I had waited… maybe I had found the right person and now I would have a beautiful family with a loving husband, but I am all alone.
What the devil keeps on taunting me, making me feel guilty, in that I should’ve taken my husband to the hospital. My husband said to me two days before he died that “he felt the same way his father did two days before he died.” This was a Saturday night. I asked him “how so?” He said he felt tired and weak. He had just been diagnosed with chronic heart failure in the hospital. He was being weaned off of a very strong antibiotic for the infection in his foot. I said “Gary, the side effects of the medication is fatigue and muscle weakness.” Monday morning, March 20, 2023 we went to the doctor who said his wound on his foot was healing nicely. We went out for breakfast and in the afternoon he was outside calling friends and texting family and friends. At 4 pm he suddenly called me asking me for his walker, which I brought out to him. Then he said “I feel like I will fall” and I said “hold on” and ran across the street to get my neighbor. We both turned to see he had collapsed on the driveway. He had a massive stroke and died. My neighbor tried CPR while I called 911. My friends have asked me “How do you know you weren’t cooperating with God’s plan?” I believe they are right, but I know I am vulnerable.
Your words here ring true for me! Thank you for reminding me. God has been teaching me that I need to trust Him all the time.
Dawn Thank You for sharing. You are giving us an opportunity to pray for You. In Matthew 18:19-20 God have already answer the prayer because we are all agreeing on this prayer and He promise to answer. His will concerning You is already done. Thank You Jesus. And don’t forget Jesus told Peter I’ve prayed for You, when Satan asked to sift him like wheat to me that means The Devil have to ask permission even when he saying lies to us. and even when God allows it , He is praying for us and waiting for us to tattle tale on the Devil so that God can interfere on our behalf. Love You Sis..
The lie I believe is that I am unworthy of love in this physical world. I won’t go into the sorted details of my divorce, it’s been years. It was the ultimate betrayal. However, the most unbearable pain, is now both of my grown daughters have become estranged from me. Without explanation, or communication. It’s as if I am dead. I’m drowning in all areas of my life and fighting hard not to lose my job. It is so hard doing everything alone.
This message speaks to me. So many times, I feel like I am a failure, I am not worthy, I can’t do anything right. The devil puts the words in my head and triggers my memories of the past, making me think and believe this is true. God loves me and knowing that he loves me helps get me through the rough times, the struggles I have had in my life, the mourning for family and friends that I have lost, the constant barriers of just trying to get through the day. God helps me to realize that these are not my thoughts and feelings. The devil is sly and knows how I will react to these awful thoughts and knows what will trigger them to make me feel unworthy to those who love me but especially unworthy in God’s eyes. But God has been my constant and I always return to him, always feel loved. I rely on God for guidance and peace.
Though I am pleasant, I am one of the oldest teachers at my charter school and not one young female teacher wants to visit with me much less want to go have coffee. (At least some students like to visit with me.) I know I have women my own age to visit with or do things with elsewhere. But I sometimes feel very lonely at my job. I wish some felt I had wisdom to share or something.
The lie I struggle with is that if only I had been stronger as a mother and Christian, 2 of my 3 sons wouldn’t have turned to drugs in their teenage years, and wouldn’t be living with the unpleasant consequences now, aged 40 & 37. When my son’s were aged 9, 11 & 13, my then husband decided to end our marriage as he had met someone online. We lost our family home to bank repossession, had to move kids out of private school, lost life as we knew it. As a single Mum I struggled to cope, my mum had cancer at the same time, I didn’t feel I fitted in with church friends. My 2 elder sons turned to drugs to soothe their pain. I even kicked my 15 year old son out of the house as he wouldn’t go to school, just do drugs. He could have gone to his Dad but wouldn’t. It’s very hard to not beat myself up for kicking him out, I would never do that now, knowing what I have learned since then. I have experienced a lot of personal & spiritual growth. Thanks for listening.
satan’s lie: I am not worthy to be God’s child and is not accepted.
Truth: God loves me unconditionally and does not condemn me
satan’s lie: No one likes me
Truth: My friends and family love me
satan’s lie: I’m ugly
Truth: Beauty is skin deep. God looks at the heart not the outward appearance.
satan’s lie: I should have sex with my boyfriend so that he doesn’t look at other girls
Truth: That only makes him have his way with me and have no interest in me anymore.
satan’s lie: I am dumb and stupid
Truth: I am average
Hello Sharon,
Thank you for this message! The devil likes to catch us off guard and attack the most vulnerable parts of our being. We have to stand firm and not give permission, to take root in the enemies lies. We are so Blessed, and Jesus is above all nonsense and devil’s rubbish. We are a child of God! Heavenbound, devil can’t touch us !!!!
That my husband will never believe me
Or love me the way I need. That our marriage will never turn around for good.