When the Soul Bleeds


[Jesus said] “Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace and be freed from your suffering” (Mark 5:31-34 NIV).

When we read the story of Jesus healing the woman who had been bleeding for twelve years, it is hard for us twenty-first century women to imagine such a condition lasting for so long. Medical science has progressed far beyond the rudimentary knowledge of Jesus’ day. It is simply unthinkable today.

But I suggest there are still many women with chronic bleeding of a different sort. We bleed from the heart.

From the time Sarah was six-years-old, her father crept into her bedroom in the dark of night and violated her little body. Now, as an adult, her heart bleeds.

When Beth was walking to her dorm room from the college library, a lurker jumped from behind the bushes, dragged her to a nearby shed and raped her at knife-point. Now, ten years later, her heart bleeds.

After twenty-years of marriage, Lucy accidentally stumbled upon an in-town hotel receipt in her husband’s wallet. Suspecting the worse, she uncovered past e-mails, supposed meetings that never occurred and a trail of deceit. When presented with the evidence, her husband admitted to having a three-year long affair. And her heart bleeds.

Laura was laid off from her job and her mother’s words re-emerge like sewage leakage from an underground septic tank. “You’re no good. You’ll never amount to anything. You’re a loser just like your father.” And because of the lies, her heart bleeds.

Melissa holds her newborn little girl in her arms and coos her to sleep. Interrupting the sweetness of the wee hours of the morning, she hears her aborted child crying from the grave. Guilt presses down as the ever-present weight deflates her joy. And her heart bleeds.

Women – hoping the pain will go away. Awakening each day with a memory that cuts a fresh wound. Women-longing to hear the words, “Go in peace and be freed from your suffering.”

The woman with the issue of blood was no different from you and me. While her apparent illness was physical, her inward suffering ruled her life. She had lost her family, all her money, and her standing in the community. She was viewed as an unclean, untouchable outcast. But in one radical moment, one momentous decision, she reached out to Jesus and grabbed hold of her healing.

He wants to set you free from your suffering, but he will not push you out of the jail cell or yank the chains off your neck. He unlocks the door, but you must walk out the door. He unlocks the chain, but you must stop wearing them around your neck.

We can choose to bleed. We can choose to remain in our suffering and pick at the scabs of the past. But hear me dear friend, it is a choice. Jesus said, “I have come that they might have life and have it to the full” (John 10:10). That’s what he wants for each of us. But we have to embrace the truth and, like the woman with the twelve-year-bleeding, reach for our healing.

In John, chapter five, Jesus encounters a lame man sitting by a pool of water where the paralyzed, blind, and afflicted gathered. Then Jesus walked up to him and asked a strange question, “Do you want to get well?” (John 5:6b).

Perhaps it wasn’t such a strange question. Many times we get used to being emotionally sick, and we wear the sickness like a shroud. We become walking wounded, picking at emotional scabs – not allowing them to heal.

Jesus said to the woman, “Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace and be freed from your suffering.”  That is the same healing he offers to you and to me. What will you do?

 Let’s Pray

Dear God, I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. I reach forward today, touch the hem of Your garment, and receive my healing. Yes, I want to get well. Give me the faith to walk in freedom and victory. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

 What do you Think? 

Is there pain in your life that you have refused to let go of?

Do you want to get well?

That is a risky question. It took a lot for the man who had been lying by the pool to get up off that pallet. He had to learn how to walk, get a job, and learn to live like a healthy person. That’s a big change after 38 years. But you can do it!  You can let go of the past and begin to live in victory and freedom!  Let’s start today!

If you are ready to reach out to Jesus and grab a hold of your healing,  leave a comment that says, “I’m grabbing hold.”

 Want More? 

Today’s devotion was taken from my book, What God Really Thinks about Women: Finding Your Significance through the Women Jesus Encountered. We tend to read the gospels with our twenty-first century eyes. But when we understand how oppressive the culture Jesus stepped into was against women, we begin to understand just how radical Jesus’ ministry, messages, and miracles were at setting women free. He risked His reputation to save theirs…and yours.

I am so passionate about this book, if you order it this week (July 31-August 3) from my website and send me an email, I’ll send you the Bible study guide for free. Email me at Sharon@localhost/sjold and say,  I ordered What God Really Thinks about Women this week.

 

 

100 Responses to When the Soul Bleeds

  1. Neha Godfrey July 31, 2012 at 7:54 am #

    I’m grabbing hold.

    • Marie July 31, 2012 at 6:27 pm #

      I am grabbing hold

  2. Mimosa July 31, 2012 at 9:37 am #

    “I’m grabbing hold!”

  3. Carolyn Price July 31, 2012 at 10:03 am #

    I’m grabbing hold!

  4. Tina July 31, 2012 at 11:04 am #

    I AM GRABBING HOLD!!

  5. Kristena Strout July 31, 2012 at 11:07 am #

    Im grabbing ahold of that healing! Im done picking at my wounds!

  6. Pat July 31, 2012 at 11:18 am #

    For many years and even to this day, I have let things paralyze me to the point that I have lost sleep. Fear, anxiety and doubt seem to be my constant friends, especially when I know that Jesus longs to give me peace. This morning, I felt bound by circumstances that are not even there. But I know that this devotion was meant for me to read this morning because I have been bleeding for years with struggles that I should have reached out in true faith for years ago. Instead, today finds me with the same old issues and doubt. I want to grab hold and not let the enemy win. Please pray that I will have peace about things in my life and the life of my family. I know that GOD is able, like you said in the devotion, he unlocks the door, but I have to be the one to walk through it. Thank you so much for these devotions, they are really a blessing to me.

    • Cindy August 1, 2012 at 2:38 am #

      You are stronger than you realize, Satan keeps attacking you to believe your not. My favorite part of scripture (which hangs on my fridge) is “I can do everything through Him who gives me strength”. And you can too!! You made a step forward by just admitting your problem now you can move forward, I know you can do it, one step at a time. God loves you and is with you every step of the way. I will pray for you.

  7. Donna July 31, 2012 at 11:25 am #

    I’m grabbing hold

  8. Jane July 31, 2012 at 11:46 am #

    I’m grabbing hold.

  9. Patricia July 31, 2012 at 11:50 am #

    I am grabbing hold. I want to let go of the pains of my past and walk into the future that the Lord has prepared for me. I want to be FREE.

  10. sharron July 31, 2012 at 12:03 pm #

    I’m grabbing hold!! I am like the lame man, whom Jesus has had to ask on many occasions “Do you want to be healed?”

  11. Marlene July 31, 2012 at 12:03 pm #

    I’m grabbing hold.

  12. Kim Bell July 31, 2012 at 12:10 pm #

    Im grabbing hold

  13. leslie July 31, 2012 at 12:17 pm #

    I am grabbing hold….yesterday I had decided that the past had defined me for far too long and then this morning I read this devotion….all the abuse of the past and hurts are now gone, I have tossed them in the garbage and will do it every day if necessary to keep moving forward!

  14. Jenisha July 31, 2012 at 12:19 pm #

    I’M GRABBING HOLD!! IN THE NAME OF JESUS…I’M GRABBING HOLD!! This devotion couldn’t have come at a better time!! Thank you, Lord, for ministering to my life and guiding me through my circumstances! I am choosing to walk out of the door of torment & depression! I’m choosing to take off the chains that You’ve unlocked! Yes my Lord, I’M GRABBING HOLD!!!

  15. Natalie July 31, 2012 at 12:32 pm #

    I’m grabbing hold!! I must choose to walk out of the jail door and take off the chain…thank you Jesus for giving me strength and opportunity! I Love you !

  16. cc July 31, 2012 at 12:35 pm #

    I’m grabbing hold.

  17. Amada July 31, 2012 at 12:58 pm #

    I’m grabbing hold!!!!!
    Thank you Sharon for letting God use you in such a powerful way.
    I too have been bleeding for years…scars of all types…my sin and so many forms of abuse upon me. But, glory be to God!!! Today he awoke me earlier than normal for a grand purpose.
    Although I have asked for forgiveness and have forgiven, I have picked at the scars for years, and have not accepted God’s healing. But, today I take hold of Gods loving touch upon my heart and receive his healing and am now free to serve God and reflect his grace to others!!!

  18. Teena July 31, 2012 at 12:59 pm #

    I AM GRABBING HOLD!!!

  19. Theresa July 31, 2012 at 1:03 pm #

    I am grabbing hold.. I’ve carried this much to long…

  20. Heather July 31, 2012 at 1:07 pm #

    I am so tired from the years of hurt and pain – thank you so much for this email today. I AM GRABBING HOLD!

  21. Stephanie July 31, 2012 at 1:24 pm #

    I’m grabbing hold

    • Cheryl July 31, 2012 at 2:05 pm #

      I’m grabbing hold

  22. toni July 31, 2012 at 1:25 pm #

    I’m grabbing hold, pray with me.

  23. Kathy July 31, 2012 at 1:25 pm #

    I’ve battled breast cancer for 10 years. I will be going to get PET Scans within the next week or so to see how things are going so today I’m grabbing hold. Thanks for the encouraging devotion…maybe today will be the day that I’m freed from my suffering. Lord, let it be unto me according to Your Word.

  24. Melanie July 31, 2012 at 1:55 pm #

    I’m grabbing hold!

  25. Toni Wortherly July 31, 2012 at 2:03 pm #

    I’m grabbing hold! And I am not letting go!
    http://elevatedvalues.weebly.com/2/post/2012/07/undamaged.html

    Be blessed,
    Toni

  26. Paula July 31, 2012 at 2:12 pm #

    I’m grabbing hold.

  27. Kathy July 31, 2012 at 2:13 pm #

    I have been battling depression for years and anxiety for 6 years. ” I am grabbing hold of healing”

  28. Kathy July 31, 2012 at 2:15 pm #

    I have alot of guild and shame in my past. I am grabbing hold of healing and freedom from all of that.

  29. Wally July 31, 2012 at 2:31 pm #

    I’m grabbing hold!

  30. Jeanne July 31, 2012 at 2:35 pm #

    I am grabbing hold!

  31. Janice July 31, 2012 at 3:00 pm #

    “I’m grabbing hold.”

  32. Vonnie Kronk July 31, 2012 at 3:06 pm #

    I’m grabbing hold

  33. Linda G July 31, 2012 at 3:10 pm #

    I’m grabbing hold!!! Thank you!

  34. Meg Hays July 31, 2012 at 3:14 pm #

    Thanks, Sharon! Your words of encouragement bless those who read them! The reminder that it is by choice to stay in suffering is a much needed one!

  35. Shonta Diggs July 31, 2012 at 3:16 pm #

    I’m grabbing hold!

  36. peggy July 31, 2012 at 3:19 pm #

    My husband died 4 yars ago on August 10th and I still feel so much pain from it. I have since remarried but I still hurt a lot from missing him. I am grabbing hold today.

  37. Stephanie July 31, 2012 at 3:19 pm #

    I’m grabbing hold!

  38. Melody July 31, 2012 at 3:20 pm #

    I’m grabbing hold….

  39. Lolette July 31, 2012 at 3:20 pm #

    I’m grabbing hold!

  40. Melodie Grace July 31, 2012 at 3:27 pm #

    I’m trading my sorrows! I’m trading my pain! I’m laying them down for the joy of the Lord! I’m letting go of my issues and GRABBING HOLD onto Jesus’ garment; for only Jesus can heal! I pray and agree with all my wounded/bleeding sisters! You are free in the Name of Jesus!

    • Sharon July 31, 2012 at 4:37 pm #

      One of my favorite songs!!!

  41. Itode July 31, 2012 at 3:28 pm #

    I am grabbing hold!

  42. Rebecca July 31, 2012 at 3:34 pm #

    I am grabbing hold! I am free!!

  43. Trudy July 31, 2012 at 3:50 pm #

    I’m grabbing hold!!

  44. Eileen July 31, 2012 at 3:51 pm #

    I’m grabbing hold!

  45. Roxie July 31, 2012 at 4:01 pm #

    I AM GRABBING HOLD!!!

  46. Sharon July 31, 2012 at 4:05 pm #

    I’m grabbing hold!!!

  47. Robin L July 31, 2012 at 4:26 pm #

    I’m grabbing hold.

  48. sue harvey July 31, 2012 at 4:35 pm #

    i’m grabbing hold…

  49. janet July 31, 2012 at 4:55 pm #

    imgrabbing hold !!

  50. Carolyn Miller July 31, 2012 at 5:01 pm #

    Im grabbing hold….please pray!!

  51. Trish Walton July 31, 2012 at 5:08 pm #

    I am grabbing hold and letting go of the past
    I pray for healing for me and all my Girlfriends in God

  52. Donna July 31, 2012 at 5:30 pm #

    “I’m grabbing hold.”

  53. Sandi July 31, 2012 at 5:41 pm #

    I am grabbing hold and I am not letting go. I’ve been in a difficult situation and I know God will release me from the situation and heal my wounds. God is GREAT!

  54. chris buller July 31, 2012 at 5:42 pm #

    im grabbing hold. thanx

  55. Courtney July 31, 2012 at 6:15 pm #

    It is our FAITH that heals us–I’m grabbing hold!

  56. Donna July 31, 2012 at 6:20 pm #

    I’m grabbing hold!!! No more chains!!!

  57. Marie July 31, 2012 at 6:31 pm #

    I am grabbing hold of HIM.

  58. Lori Fletcher July 31, 2012 at 7:11 pm #

    IM GRABBING HOLD OF HIS GARMENT!!!
    PUTTING ALL OF MY BLEEDS AT HIS FEET!!!
    GOD GRANT ME THE STRENGTH NOT TO TAKE IT BACK….
    Strength’s meaning: state of being strong,power,vigor,mental power,force,firmness,courage,authority and resources(He gives me the resources(I love that one))

  59. Lori July 31, 2012 at 7:17 pm #

    I’m grabbing hold!!

  60. Cindy July 31, 2012 at 7:52 pm #

    I’m Grabbing Hold! I walked out of a dark cave, hand in hand with Jesus, several years back. I am not totally free yet. I want to be. I need to be. I really appreciate these words you shared: “He wants to set you free from your suffering, but he will not push you out of the jail cell or yank the chains off your neck. He unlocks the door, but you must walk out the door. He unlocks the chain, but you must stop wearing them around your neck.” I must stop wearing those chains around my neck – by the grace of God, I can do that! Praise Him!

    Thank you for sharing this, Sharon. God bless you richly!

  61. Sandra July 31, 2012 at 9:11 pm #

    I’m Grabbing Hold !!!

  62. stefanie July 31, 2012 at 9:37 pm #

    I’m grabbing hold

  63. Melisa Aragon July 31, 2012 at 10:29 pm #

    Im grabbing hold… I am a recovering drug addict and that’s how I always introduce myself, not I am a child of God, which is what I truly am. I know that satan has had his hold on me long enough and I am tired. I don’t have to struggle with God and that’s what God’s been trying to tell me through my Bible studies!! I have seen so many miracles in my life and I can choose today to let someone else dictate who I am or define myself with Jesus’ help!! I am experiecing joyce meyers battlefield of the mind and having spiritual revelations and breakthroughs that are changing me forever. Thank you for this today… I am grateful and God bless the women of gig!! You guys are helping change lives with the word of God!! Amazing!!

  64. Melisa Aragon July 31, 2012 at 10:29 pm #

    Im grabbing hold… I am a recovering drug addict and that’s how I always introduce myself, not I am a child of God, which is what I truly am. I know that satan has had his hold on me long enough and I am tired. I don’t have to struggle with God and that’s what God’s been trying to tell me through my Bible studies!! I have seen so many miracles in my life and I can choose today to let someone else dictate who I am or define myself with Jesus’ help!! I am experiecing joyce meyers battlefield of the mind and having spiritual revelations and breakthroughs that are changing me forever. Thank you for this today… I am grateful and God bless the women of gig!! You guys are helping change lives with the word of God!! Amazing!!

  65. Anita July 31, 2012 at 11:30 pm #

    I’m grabbing hold. I claim victory and healing in Jesus’ name Amen!

  66. Nancy August 1, 2012 at 12:14 am #

    I’m grabbing hold !

  67. Judy August 1, 2012 at 12:29 am #

    Thanks Sharon your message is right on with me today. No, my past is not tradgic, but I’m just plain sick and tired of getting no where. I’m grabbing hold of Jesus, and I’m not letting go.

  68. Kinsey Johnsob August 1, 2012 at 12:44 am #

    I AM GRABBING A HOLD!!!!! THank you for this!!!

  69. Tyler Williams August 1, 2012 at 1:26 am #

    I’m grabbing hold!!! Your daily devotionals on Crosswalk have been exactly what I needed to hear this week!! Life as a college student can get tough! Pray for me!

  70. Brittany August 1, 2012 at 1:54 am #

    I am grabbing hold.

  71. Shirley August 1, 2012 at 2:57 am #

    I am grabbing a hold for my healing! I have been grieving for 12 months over the loss of my husband and really suffering inside and feeling lost and sick! Not knowing what the future holds and feeling so alone and yet knowing I have Jesus for my husband! Yes..I am grabbing a hold for my healing..In Jesus Name!

  72. Sharon August 1, 2012 at 3:41 am #

    I’m grabbing hold.

    But I’m terribly afraid.

  73. Bonny August 1, 2012 at 6:38 am #

    I’m grabbing hold!!!! Life has been so tough on me for awhile I’m drowning in depression, brokenness, marriage is depleting. Thank u for ur devotionals daily I get a glimps of something new. Jesus is my Savior, my Rock and my Shield!!!! I’ve been down before and have climbed my way out I know he’ll be faithful to help me climb out of this too!!!

  74. Deep August 1, 2012 at 7:22 am #

    I am grabbing hold.

  75. Natasha August 1, 2012 at 10:18 am #

    I am grabbing hold.

  76. Abigail August 1, 2012 at 10:58 am #

    I’m grabbing hold!!!

  77. Chrystal August 1, 2012 at 11:51 am #

    I’m grabbing hold

  78. Linda August 1, 2012 at 1:27 pm #

    I’m grabbing hold

  79. Nomazizi August 1, 2012 at 1:31 pm #

    I am grabbing hold in Jesus mighty name, AMEN!!!

  80. Annette August 1, 2012 at 2:53 pm #

    I’m grabbing hold!

  81. Erica Partee August 1, 2012 at 8:35 pm #

    “I’m grabbing hold.”
    Im still angry about my mother having a crack cocaine addiction and later being murdered never to recover. Im still hurt by my Dad not stepping up to take care of us. Im still feeling like I was dealt a bad hand. Although I understande that my mom and dad did the best they could do since neither one of them kenw Jesus. I am thankful for having the opportunity to know Jesus for myself and being filled with his precious Holy Ghost. But even in all of this it still hurts.
    Today I am choosing to allow my Jesus to do spiritual surgery on my heart so that I can move forward in Christ.
    Girlfriends in Gid us such a blessing to me!!!!

  82. Di August 1, 2012 at 8:47 pm #

    I need help grabbing hold, so I had my first faith based counseling session, yesterday – your post came just in time! It’s been too long that I have been chained and I am finally ready.

  83. Ruth August 2, 2012 at 11:00 am #

    I’m grabbing hold!

  84. Cheryl August 3, 2012 at 2:27 am #

    I am grabbing hold.! I believe, but God help my unbelief!!

  85. Teri August 4, 2012 at 10:16 am #

    I’m grabbing hold!!!

  86. Mika August 5, 2012 at 4:39 pm #

    I’m grabbing hold! God is my freedom and victory!!!

  87. Joyce G August 5, 2012 at 11:49 pm #

    I am grabbing hold! Thank You Lord!

  88. Sandy August 6, 2012 at 2:16 pm #

    I am grabbing hold

  89. Mona August 6, 2012 at 3:30 pm #

    I’m grabbing hold.

  90. Nicole August 8, 2012 at 1:06 pm #

    I’M GRABBING HOLD!!

  91. Sharon Newmann August 13, 2012 at 2:14 pm #

    Yes, I’ve been grabbing hold for the past 12 years after bleeding from stab wounds from being verbally abused by someone who should have loved me the most. I found healing as I began to understand that I needed to forgive my abuser. The Lord changed my life around through a few well-known Christians on TCT, after 50 years of struggling with depression due to bitterness. Forgiveness is the key to freedom from the past and victory in the present! See Matthew 5:43 – 48.
    Thanks, Sharon, for your devotionals as well.
    From another Sharon, God bless!

  92. Lydia November 26, 2012 at 2:26 pm #

    I’M GRABBING HOLD.

  93. Angie December 26, 2012 at 2:37 pm #

    I’m grabbing hold! 😛

  94. Petrunella December 26, 2012 at 6:46 pm #

    I’m grabbing hold right now, in Jesus’s name. Amen.

  95. edinah March 20, 2013 at 9:16 am #

    I am grabbing hold on Jesus. Amen

  96. Betty June 4, 2013 at 1:42 pm #

    I was daughter of satan for many years. I could make excuses for my past life but I won’t. I am a child of god now and know god forgives me but have hard time forgiving myself. I have two children out of wedlock who raised and are doing well. But god forgive me for giving them a life without a strong christain family life. Please keep my family in your prayers and all the people in the world with low self esteem who make very poor choices. Thank you for being a light in this dark world. Betty

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