Archive for November, 2009

Battered and Bruised

Monday, November 30th, 2009

Today’s Truth 
2 Corinthians 4:7 (NIV) “But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us.” 

Friend To Friend 
The speaker came out onto the stage. He pulled out a one-hundred dollar bill.

“Who would like this one-hundred dollar bill?” he asked.

Hands shot up all around the room.

Then he crumpled the paper, threw it on the floor and ground the dirt into it with his foot.  Holding up the dirty, crumpled and tattered money, he then asked, “Now, who wants this one-hundred dollar bill?”

The same hands went into the air.

“And that is why God still wants you,” he continued. “You may be battered and bruised. You may be tattered and torn. You may be crumpled and creased but that does not change your value to God any more than what I have done changes the value of this one-hundred dollar bill.  You are still precious and valuable to the God who chose you, redeemed you, and loves you as His own.”

“He knows how we are formed; he remembers that we are dust” (Psalm 103:14). God understands that we are fatally flawed creatures, yet deems us immeasurably valuable no matter how crumpled and soiled we are.

Paul wrote to the Corinthians, “But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us” (2 Corinthians 4:7). In Paul’s day, it was customary to store treasure in clay jars. The common container disguised its contents and didn’t draw attention to the treasure within. You and I might not look like much on the outside. We may appear as common as jars of clay, but inside are hidden incredible treasures. Inside these old cracked pots reside the most incredible treasure of all – Jesus Christ.  And that makes us valuable.

In Louisa May Alcott’s book, Little Women, she includes a conversation from Mrs. March to her three girls, Meg, Jo, and Amy. “I only care what you think of yourself. If you feel your value lies in being merely decorative, I fear that someday you might find yourself believing that’s all you really are. Time erodes all such beauty. But what it cannot diminish is the wonderful workings of your mind – your humor, your kindness, and your moral courage. These are things I so cherish in you.”

Our culture places an ungodly amount of significance on a woman’s appearance. Outward trappings of appearance are simply … trappings but God sees us as simple jars of clay containing valuable treasure and that makes us beautiful to Him.

Let’s Pray 
Dear Lord, even though I am battered and bruised, I know that I am still valuable to You. Thank You for loving me so much that You sent Your Son, Jesus, to die for my sins. Thank You for making a way for me to have eternal life through Jesus’ sacrifice. Thank You for seeing me as Your priceless treasure.
In Jesus’ Name, 
Amen.

Now It’s Your Turn 
Don’t you love the teacher’s illustration of the crumpled dollar bill? Today, consider using that illustration with a friend or a child who feels knocked down by life.

Today’s devotion was taken from Sharon’s book, I’m Not Good Enough and Other Lies Women Tell Themselves. If you feel battered and bruised by life, if you have been believing lies that you are worthless, then join Sharon in learning to see yourself as God sees you – a valuable treasure – as a chosen, dearly loved child of the King.

Grumbling to Grateful Part 2

Friday, November 27th, 2009

Today’s Truth 
1 Thessalonians 5:18 (NIV) “Give thanks in all circumstances.”  

Friend To Friend 
Yesterday, we looked at how the grumbling Israelites were not allowed to enter the Promised Land because of their unbelief and grumbling attitude. Now, let’s take a look at what happened with the next generation.

The next generation learned from their parents’ mistakes. They worshipped the Lord, praised Him for His provisions, and believed His promises.

Here’s what the first generation of freed Israelites did not understand. When they grumbled and complained, they were not speaking against Moses. They were speaking against God. “You are not grumbling against us,” Moses said, “but against the LORD” (Exodus 16:8). God had miraculously delivered them from slavery, parted the Red Sea, provided food from heaven, placed a cloud in the sky to protect them from the scorching sun, provided a fire to warm them in the chill of night, prevented their clothes and shoes from wearing out the entire time they were in the desert … and yet they grumbled.

Can you imagine such ingratitude? Unfortunately, I can. God provided a sacrifice for our sins and pardon from eternal punishment. “For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life” (John 3:16). And if that wasn’t enough, take a look at these promises:

  • “But to each one of us grace has been given as Christ apportioned it” (Ephesians 4:7).
  • God has given us the “Spirit as a deposit, guaranteeing what is to come” (2 Corinthians 5:5).
  • “His divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness” (2 Peter 1:3).
  • “Through these he has given us his very great and precious promises, so that through them you may participate in the divine nature and escape the corruption in the world caused by evil desires” (1 Peter 2:1).
  • “We know that we live in him and he in us, because he has given us of his Spirit” (1 John 4:13).
  • “We know also that the Son of God has come and has given us understanding, so that we may know him who is true” (1 John 5:20).

…and yet we grumble and complain.

Could it be that when we grumble, we too are complaining, not simply about our circumstances, but about the sovereign God and His provision for our lives?

It all boils down to our attitude and perspective of who is in control.

Bible teacher Chuck Swindoll says this about attitude: 

 The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, than money, than circumstances, than failures, than success, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill. It will make or break a company … a church … a home, or an individual. The remarkable thing is we have a choice every day regarding the attitude we will embrace for the day. We cannot change our past … we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is ten percent what happens to me and ninety percent how I react to it. And so it is with you. We are in charge of our attitudes.

And what is the attitude that changes grumbling into gratefulness?  It is an attitude of gratitude that Paul describes in 1 Thessalonians 5:18, “Give thanks in all circumstances.”

Let’s Pray 
Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for this brand new day. Thank You for eyes to see, ears to hear, a voice to speak, hands to feel and a nose to smell. Thank You for a heart that beats, lungs that breathe, and organs that function to keep my body moving. Thank You for the sun that rose this morning! I am just bubbling over with thanksgiving and praise!

In Jesus’ Name, 
Amen.

Now It’s Your Turn 
Read the story of the ten lepers in Luke 17:11-19.

How many men thanked Jesus for what he had done?

What does that tell you about the other nine?

Today, have an attitude of gratitude and thank God for even the little blessings.

While you’re at it, thank others for their service and acts of kindness.

Today’s devotion is taken from Sharon’s book, The Power of a Woman’s Words. In this book, you can explore the power you possess, the people you impact, the potential for change, and the profound possibilities. As you harness this mighty force, you will begin to use words to speak life to those around you. Get one for yourself, or gather a group of girlfriends to learn and grow together.

Grumbling to Grateful part 1

Tuesday, November 24th, 2009

Today’s Truth 
“Give thanks in all circumstances” (1 Thessalonians 5:18 NIV).

Friend To Friend 
Grumbling is as old as Methuselah. Actually, it goes way back before him. After Satan enticed Eve to disobey God and eat the forbidden fruit, there was a whole lot of grumbling going on. 

“The wife You gave me made me do it,” Adam complained.

“The serpent You created made me do it,” Eve whined.

And the grumbling didn’t stop there.  From Genesis to Revelation the grumbling rolls like human thunder.

Perhaps one of the most vivid portraits of grumbling is found in Exodus when Moses led the Israelites out of Egypt. God’s chosen people had been in servitude to the Egyptians for four-hundred years. During that time, they had been “fruitful and multiplied greatly.” In other words, they had a lot of babies. They were “exceedingly numerous so that the land was filled with them” (Exodus 1:7). The Egyptian King feared that the Israelites would rebel and attempt to take over the kingdom, so he made them slaves in order to thwart a future uprising.

For four-hundred years the Israelites served under the whip of the Egyptian task masters. Then one day, God took note of their affliction and heard their cries for deliverance. So God chose Moses to be the deliverer of the Hebrew nation. What follows Moses’ encounter with God at the burning bush in Midian is one of the most powerful stories in Scripture. Moses did indeed lead over a million Israelites out of Egypt and on toward the Promised Land of Canaan.

But there were many roadblocks along the way, including the Hebrews’ grumbling and unbelief.  They grumbled because the drinking water was bitter, so God made it sweet (Exodus 15:23-25).  They grumbled about the lack of food, so God brought forth manna from heaven (Exodus 16).  They grumbled about the lack of meat, so God rained down quail from the sky (Exodus 16). Again, they grumbled because of the lack water, so God sprang up water from a rock. They grumbled about the leadership selection, so God caused Aaron’s rod, a dead piece of wood, to bud, bloom and bear fruit (Numbers 17:8). 

How did God feel about their grumbling and complaining?

“Now the people complained about their hardship in the hearing of the LORD, and when he heard them his anger was aroused. Then fire from the LORD burned among them and consumed some of the outskirts of the camp. When the people cried out to Moses, he prayed to the LORD and the fire died down” (Exodus 11:1).

You would have thought they would learn their lesson from this fiery experience. Unfortunately, while God’s wrath burned the camp, it did not brand the message on their hearts. Finally, God had had enough of their grumbling and even Moses’ prayers could not stop His wrath. He forbade that generation to enter the Promised Land and they died in the desert because of their unbelief and grumbling.

Have you ever considered the idea that grumbling and complaining could be keeping you out of God’s Promised Land for your life?  We’re going to stop with the Israelites in the desert and think about that for a bit but join me tomorrow and we’ll discover how to remove the roadblock of grumbling and get going again.

Let’s Pray 
Dear LORD, I confess that I grumble and complain way too much. Help me to have a grateful heart for all that You have given me. Today, I commit to turn my grumbling into gratefulness and my complaining into contentment.

In Jesus’ Name, 
Amen.

Now It’s Your Turn 
You may want to get a roll of quarters for this exercise.

Every time you complain today, stop and take a quarter out of your purse.

Every time you grumble today, stop and take a quarter out of your purse.

At the end of the day, gather those quarters and give them to someone.

If you would like to do this exercise with your children, give each one a roll of nickels. Ask them to give up a nickel every time they grumble or complain.  At the end of the week, they get to keep what they did not have to surrender. 

Today’s devotion is taken from Sharon’s book, The Power of a Woman’s Words. In this book, you can explore the power you possess, the people you impact, the potential for change, and the profound possibilities. As you harness this mighty force, you will begin to use words to speak life to those around you. Get one for yourself, or gather a group of girlfriends to learn and grow together.

Valued

Monday, November 16th, 2009

Today’s Truth 
Mark 5:32 (NIV) “Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace and be freed from your suffering.”

Friend To Friend 
If you have ever felt worthless, this woman knows how you feel.  For twelve years she suffered from bleeding, and no one could find a cure. The more money she spent on treatment, the worse her condition grew. Her money was gone … her heart was spent. In Jesus’ day, a woman was considered ‘unclean’ during her monthly cycle. This woman had been considered ‘unclean’ for twelve years. Untouchable. Unacceptable. Worthless.

But she had heard about this Jesus. “He heals the sick. He raises the dead. He restores sight to the blind.” Perhaps he could heal me, she hoped.

Can you see her? Her head was covered. Her eyes were downcast, hoping no one would recognize her as she scurried through the crowd.

If I could just touch the hem of his garment, she mused. I know I am not supposed to be out in public, but I have nowhere else to turn. There he is! I see Him! Thinking that she could “steal” a healing, the woman reached through the crowd and touched the corner of Jesus’ robe. Immediately, the flow of blood ceased.

 

But what happened next was even more miraculous than the physical healing she received. Jesus stopped the caravan of followers to recognize one who felt worthless in the world’s eyes.

As soon as the healing power of Jesus left his body, he knew it. Jesus spun around and asked, “Who touched my clothes?”

The disciples thought that was a strange question. Hundreds of people were pressing in all around him. How could he ask, “Who touched my clothes?” But Jesus always knows the intentions of our hearts and he distinguished the touch of faith from the touch of followers.

The woman could have easily snuck away with her healing. But Jesus was interested in her total restoration not simply her physical health. With fear and trembling, she fell at her Healer’s feet.

“It was me,” she cried. “I know that I am not worthy to wipe the dust from your feet, but I have had an issue of blood for these twelve years. You were my only hope. Forgive me, Lord.”

“Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace and be freed from your suffering” (Mark 5:34).

Yes, Jesus was on his way to an important official’s home. Jairus’ daughter was dying and Jesus was about to make an important house call. And yet, this daughter of Abraham was also important to Him. He stopped his journey, turned around, and restored her physically, emotionally and spiritually. She was worth it. So are you.

Let’s Pray 
Dear LORD, I am so grateful that in Your eyes, I have great worth. I am so thankful that Jesus took the time to heal this broken woman and that He takes the time to take care of me as well.  As I go about my day, help me to reach out to those who feel worthless and share the love of Christ.

In Jesus’ Name, 
Amen.

Now It’s Your Turn 
Have you ever felt worthless?

What do you learn about Jesus’ attitude toward women as He stopped to heal this woman?

What do you learn through Jesus’ actions about stopping to encourage those who feel worthless? 

Go back and look at Today’s Truth. How do you think it made the woman feel when Jesus called her “daughter?”.

Today’s devotion was taken from Sharon’s book, I’m Not Good Enough and other Lies Women Tell Themselves.  To learn more, visit www.sharonjaynes.com.

“I’m Not __________ Enough.”

Monday, November 9th, 2009

Today’s Truth 
“Don’t you know that you yourselves are God’s temple and that God’s Spirit lives in you” (1 Corinthians 3:16).

Friend To Friend 
I’m not _____________ enough. You can fill that blank in with smart, talented, gifted, spiritual, or any number of positive attributes.  But the root source of each one of those lies is “I’m not good enough.” It is one of the enemy’s favorite weapons and he uses it to keep God’s children in bondage to feelings of inferiority, insecurity, and inadequacy. The bottom line is that the enemy wants you to believe that you are “not enough.” Period. But you are enough. You are enough and have been equipped and empowered to do everything that God has called you to do.

It seems the message of “I’m not good enough to earn my way to heaven on my own,” has been transformed into I’m not good enough…period. God created man and woman and said, “It is good.” We are so valuable to God that He gave His only Son to restore our brokenness.

To be honest, I could have been the poster child for this lie. If feeling inadequate was an Olympic event, I would have been on the Wheaties box. It was the undercurrent of my entire existence until I finally realized who I was in Christ. Bible teacher Beth Moore said, “In the dead of the night when insecurities crawl on us like fleas, all of us have terrifying bouts of insecurity and panics of insignificance. Our human natures pitifully fall to the temptation to pull out the tape measure and gauge ourselves against people who seem more gifted and anointed by God.”  That was me.

Many women are living in silent defeat, comparing themselves to other women who are living in secret defeat. I’m not a good mother. I’m not a good wife.  I’m not a good Christian. I’m not a good witness. I’m not a good housekeeper. I’m not a good decorator. I’m not a good cook. I’m not a good….  Women are caught in a cycle of the “I’m not good enough.” One by one the petals fall from the beautiful flower God created us to be.  Like ticker tape, our fragmented pieces of confidence litter the streets like the Macy’s parade passing by.

Unfortunately, I wasted many precious years held captive by the enemy’s lies before I held up my chained hands to God and said, “I’m ready for you to set me free.”

Consider this:

Jacob was a liar.

Moses was a stutterer.

Gideon was a coward.

David was an adulterer.

Rahab was a prostitute.

Esther was an orphan.

Balaam’s donkey was…well, a donkey.

And yet God used each one of them to impact His kingdom. 

God doesn’t call us because we are particularly gifted or talented. He uses us because we are obedient and dependent on Him. He doesn’t call the qualified – He qualifies the called.

The truth is, if you have experienced new birth in Christ, when God looks at you, He sees Jesus.  And friend, Jesus is good enough.

Let’s Pray 
Dear Heavenly Father, I thank You today. Because of Jesus Christ and His work of redemption in me, I am deeply loved, completely forgiven, fully pleasing and totally accepted by You.  Because of Jesus Christ in me, I am equipped and empowered to do all that You have called me to do. Now, LORD, help me act like it.
In Jesus’ Name, 
Amen.

Now It’s Your Turn 

  • Go back to that first sentence in today’s devotion.  What would you put in that blank? 
  • Is that the truth?  
  • What do you think God would say to you about what you have written in that blank? 

 Are you ready to begin walking in the truth rather than stumbling over the lies?  Are you ready to begin seeing yourself as God sees you?  Then you’ll want to read Sharon’s new book, I’m Not Good Enough…and Other Lies Women Tell Themselves.  Visit her website to read an excerpt. But be warned. This book could change your life! 

Retraining our Reflexes

Wednesday, November 4th, 2009

Today’s Truth 
Paul wrote: “Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me–put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you” (Philippians 4:9 NIV).

Friend To Friend 
It was hot.  The traffic was heavy.  I was young and distracted.

I was driving alone in the flow of traffic traveling to and from the North Carolina coast.  I was in the group headed for home.  The July traffic was bumper to bumper with everyone going faster than the posted speed limit.  I had other things on my mind besides maneuvering in traffic and was paying little attention to the cars around me. 

Traveling sixty miles per hour in my sporty two-tone Pontiac Sunbird, I felt my front right tire slip off of the asphalt and onto the gravel shoulder of the road.  In a flood of panic, I heard the voice of my Driver’s Ed teacher from four years before, “If you run off the road, do not, and I repeat, do not jerk you car back on the road.  Slow down to a stop and guide the car back onto the road gently.”

My mind knew the rule. I was even repeating, “Do not jerk the car. Do not jerk the car.”  Then I promptly… jerked the car. I pulled the steering wheel to the left, jerked the car onto the road, and lost control.  First the Sunbird flew across two lanes of traffic to the left and then, after overcorrecting again, she flew back off the road to the right.  As if in slow motion, my car began a descent down an embankment.  The weight of the car became unbalanced and began to roll.  As the car somersaulted down the embankment, my body tossed and tumbled like a rag doll, bouncing around the car’s interior.  I did not have on a seatbelt.  When the car landed upside down at the bottom of the embankment, I was sitting on the ceiling of the passenger’s side. 

Travelers watched with mouths aghast as the scenario played out before them. You can imagine how amazed they were to see me crawl out of the car’s opened window without a scratch.  I knew, without a doubt, that I should not have lived through that accident.  It was only by the grace of God that I survived.

Thinking back on that event, I am reminded how powerful reflexes are. When the car veered off the road, I knew what to do, but I did the opposite.  I knew not to jerk the steering wheel, but I did it regardless. 

When it comes to changing the way we speak, we may have some very powerful reflexes to overcome.  The Bible tells us that when we come to Christ, we are a new creation (2 Corinthians 5:17).  However, no one pushes the delete button to erase the old habits patterns that have been formed over time.  That comes with practice, training and reprogramming.

I want to encourage you not to get discouraged if you make a mistake and use your words in a negative way from time to time.  Satan would like nothing better than for you to simply give up on using your words for good.  But even Jesus knew that sometimes a temple has to be cleaned out more than once.

Shortly after Jesus’ first miracle at the wedding of Canaan, he traveled to Capernaum with his mother, brothers, and disciples.  It was almost time for the Jewish Passover celebration, so Jesus went up to Jerusalem to worship.  As he approached the temple, Jesus heard the bleating of sheep, smelled the stench of the cattle, and saw the gypsy-like haggling and exchanging of coins.  The temple had become a free-for-all rather than a house of prayer.

“So he made a whip out of cords, and drove all from the temple area, both sheep and cattle; he scattered the coins of the money changers and over-turned their tables.  To those who sold doves he said, ‘Get these out of here!  How dare you turn my Father’s house into a market!’” (John 2:15-16)

Yes, Jesus cleaned out the temple that day, but it wasn’t long before the money changers began to creep back in with their wares. I imagine it all began with one man setting up his table.  Then another and another until the carnival-type atmosphere once again polluted God’s house.

This incident recorded in John chapter two occurred at the beginning of Jesus’ earthly ministry.  But we see a similar scene toward the end.  It was just a few days before Jesus’ arrest and crucifixion.  He rode into town on a donkey as the crowd spread their cloaks on the road.  “Blessed is the king who comes in the name of the Lord!” they shouted as Jesus passed by.

Once Jesus arrived in Jerusalem, He headed straight for the temple area to worship. Once again He was met with the mayhem and stench of the money changers and the animals they sold for temple sacrifices.  As He had done three years prior, Jesus began driving out the money changers with their doves, sheep, and cattle scampering behind. “My house will be a house of prayer” Jesus proclaimed, “but you have made it a den of robbers!”

In the New Testament, God calls us temples of the living God (1 Corinthians 3:16).  Just as Jesus cleaned the temple at the beginning and the end of his earthly ministry, so we may need to clean out our temples many times.  Yes, we make a clean sweep of the sin in our lives on the day we accept Jesus as our Savior, but eventually, those bad habits tend to creep back in if the temple is left unattended.  So check up on yourself often.  Pay attention to your words and determine if you need a spring cleaning to keep the temple pure.

Psychologists tell us that it takes twenty-one days to establish a new habit. Here’s an idea, for twenty-one days, put five pennies in your left pocket.  Each time you say an encouraging word to someone, move a penny to the right pocket.  Make it your goal to move all the pennies from the left to the right and deposit encouraging words to those you come in contact with each day.  You’ll be doing more than moving pennies.  You’ll be investing in another’s soul.

James wrote, “If anyone considers himself religious and yet does not keep a tight rein on his tongue, he deceives himself and his religion is worthless” (James 1:26).  Although James uses the analogy of a horse when teaching on the tongue, he’s not horsing around when it comes to the impact it has on those around us. Let’s reign in our words and gallop on down the path to changing the way we speak.

Let’s Pray 
Dear Heavenly Father, I know it will take practice for me to tame my tongue.  And while James said it is impossible for man to tame the tongue, Your word also tells us that nothing is impossible for God.  So today, God, I’m asking You to tame my tongue.  I commit to participate and practice, as You provide the power.

In Jesus’ Name, 
Amen.

Now It’s Your Turn 
Go back and read today’s truth.  What did Paul tell us to do?

What is the result of practicing what the Bible teaches?

The verses that precede Philippians 4:9 are some of my favorite.  Pull out your Bible and look up Philippians 4:8 and use this as a guide to what you think about today.


Today’s devotion is taken from Sharon’s book, The Power of a Woman’s Words.  If you would like to learn more about how to tame the tongue and use your words to speak life into those around you, this is the book for you.  It also comes with a companion Bible study guide to use in a group or just on your own.

Just Because You’re Mine

Monday, November 2nd, 2009

Today’s Truth 
“For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith-and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God-not by works, so that no one can boast” (Ephesians 2:8-9 NIV).

Friend To Friend 
Anabel Gillham was a woman who loved God, but had trouble accepting that God could love her.  Sure, she knew the Bible verses that talked of God’s unconditional love for her, and yet she knew herself, and doubted a God who knew her innermost thoughts would approve or her.

The root of her problem was how she saw God and how she believed God saw her. She knew what kind of God He was.  She read, Exodus 34:6, “Then the LORD passed by in front of him [Moses] and proclaimed, ‘The LORD, the LORD God, compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, and abounding in loving kindness and truth…”, but she believed she had to earn that love. She believed she had to be good enough to deserve it.  Then God used a very special person to help Annabel understand the depths of God’s love for her – her second child, Mason David Gillham, who was profoundly retarded.  Let’s let Anabel tell you her story.

Mace could sing one song with great gusto, just one: “Jesus Loves Me.”  He would throw his head back and hold on to the first “Yes” in the chorus just as long as he could, and then he would get tickled and almost fall out of his chair.  I can still hear him giggle when I think back on those days that seem so distant and so far away.  How poignant that memory is to me. I never doubted for a moment that Jesus loved that profoundly retarded little boy.  It didn’t matter that he would never sit with the kids in the back of the church and on a certain special night walk down the aisle, take the pastor by the hand, and invite Jesus into his heart.  It was entirely irrelevant that he could not quote a single verse of Scripture, that he would never go to high school, or that he would never be a dad.  I knew that Jesus loved Mason. What I could not comprehend, what I could not accept, was that Jesus could love Mason’s mother, Anabel.  You see, I believed that in order for a person to accept me, to love me, I had to perform for him.  My standard for getting love was performance-based, so I “performed” constantly, perfectly.  In fact, I did not allow anyone to see me when I was not performing perfectly.  I never had any close friends because I was convinced that if a person ever really got to know me, she wouldn’t like me. I carried this belief into my relationship with God, and as I began to study the Bible, I found, to my horror, that He knew my every thought, let alone everything I said or did (Psalm 139:1-4).  I was standing “bare and wide open to the all-seeing eyes of our living God” (Hebrews 4:13), TLB.  What did that mean to me?  That meant that He really knew me, that He saw me when I wasn’t performing well.  Based on what I perceived as my responsibility to perform in order to receive acceptance, I concluded without a doubt that He could not possibly love me, that He could never like what He saw. Mace could never have performed for our love, or for anyone’s love, but oh, how we loved him. 

His condition deteriorated to such a degree – and so rapidly – that we had to institutionalize him when he was very young, so we enrolled him in the Enid State School for Mentally Handicapped Children.  We drove regularly the 120 miles to see him, but on this particular weekend, he was at home for a visit.  He had been with us since Thursday evening, and it was now Saturday afternoon.  As soon as the dinner dishes were done, I would gather his things together and take him back to his house.  I had done this many times before – and it was never easy – but today God had something in mind that would change my life forever. As I was washing the dishes, Mason was sitting in his chair watching me, or at least he was looking at me.  That’s when it began.  My emotions were spinning, my stomach started tumbling, and the familiar sickening thoughts of just a little while, I’m going to start packing Mason’s toys and his clothes, and take him away again.  I can’t do that.  I simply cannot do it.  I stopped washing the dishes and got down on my knees in front of Mace.  I took his dirty little hands in mine and tried so desperately to reach him. “Mason, I love you.  I love you.  If only you could understand how much I love you.” He just stared.  He couldn’t understand; he didn’t comprehend.  I stood up and started on the dishes again, but that didn’t last long.  This sense of urgency – almost a panic – came over me, and once more I dried my hands and knelt in front of my precious little boy. “My dear Mason, if only you could say to me, ‘I love you, Mother.’  I need that, Mace.” Nothing. I stood up to the sink again. More dishes, more washing, more crying – and thoughts, foreign to my way of thinking, began filtering into my conscious awareness.  I believe God spoke to me that day, and this is what He said: “Anabel, you don’t look at your son and turn away in disgust because he’s sitting there with saliva drooling out of his mouth; you don’t shake your head, repulsed because he has dinner all over his shirt or because he’s sitting in a dirty, smelly diaper when he ought to be able to take care of himself.  Anabel, you don’t reject Mason because all of the dreams you had for him have been destroyed.  You don’t reject him because he doesn’t perform for you.  You love him, Anabel, just because he is yours.  Mason doesn’t willfully reject your love, but you willfully reject Mine.  I love you, Anabel, not because you’re neat or attractive, or because you do things well, not because you perform for Me but just because you’re Mine.” (Anabel Gillham, The Confident Woman: Knowing Who Your Are in Christ, (Eugene, Oregon: Harvest House Publishers, 1993), 26-29)

 Hearing Anabel’s story transformed my thinking about God’s love for me.  For years, I lived as though I had to be “good enough” for God to love me.  I understood that salvation was a gift of grace – a free gift from God that I did not earn – but somewhere I began believing the lie that I had to perform properly to keep the gift.  I feared if I was not good enough, He would take it back.  But that is a lie.

I am enough…because Jesus lives in me and the Holy Spirit works through me.  And friend, so are you.

Let’s Pray 
Dear Heavenly Father, I thank You for loving me just the way I am.  I thank You that I don’t have to earn Your love, but receive it as a free gift that You lavish on me!  And God, I thank You that nothing can separate me from Your love.  In Jesus’ Name, 
Amen.

Now It’s Your Turn 

Look up the following verses and note what you learn about God’s love for you.

 

  • Psalm 52:8  
  • Romans 8:38-39  
  • Ephesians 2:4-5  
  • 1 John 4:10  
  • 1 John 4:16

 Today’s devotion was taken from Sharon’s book, I’m Not Good Enough…and Other Lies Women Tell Themselves.  If you would like to learn more about how to begin seeing yourself as God sees you, then this is the book for you!